The good old days. That’s what everyone calls them. I remember them as being old. Dry, dead, endless heat. Days hiding from the sun. Nights with only stars for witnesses. Hours of nothingness, waiting outside a village, tracking movements. And minutes filled with whizzing bullets. Paah-paah when they left the gun. Chook-chook when they hit the sand just in front of me. Or whoosh-whoosh as they zoom into the trees and bushes behind me, stripping them of foliage—it’s easy to remember the sound of bullets when they don’t hit you.
There! A target.
Take aim, breathe—fire!
Do it again. And again.
“The good old days, eh?” Pietermaritzburg reminisced as we sat on his family farm’s stoep. Intel. Enemy movements. Missions. Targets. Clear and defined.
“Ja,” I replied, “the old days.”
Looking at dirt paths, trying to see if the earth had been disturbed by mine-planting. The evenings, humid, sticky, full of malaria and the harrumphing of hippos when we were near the Okavango. The mornings of creaking muscles—the nerves, stretched, steeled and sharpened. The monk-like blanking of the mind, the vacating of the soul. No wants or desires beyond the day’s hunt: insurgents, guerrillas, rebels, freedom fighters, terrorists—kaffirs. The old days.
I remember Pietermaritzburg’s barking briefings, Kaapstad’s jokes, Kimberley’s religious dogma, East London’s short-lived advice and Knysna’s naivety. I remember my conscription, my diligent training, the awakening of my bloodlust, my belief and faith—my soldierly qualities. My reassignment: “South West Africa—you’re the kind of man we need up there.” I remember being told I was a closed file already, a corpse that would never be claimed. “Nobody is supposed to know we have covert units there.”
I remember meeting the others. “We’ll call you Johannesburg,” Pietermaritzburg said, “save the other details for a pretty date.”
Kaapstad laughed at my introduction, formal, with a sharp, paper cut of a salute. “Do you know what we do in this unit, Joburg?” he asked.
Counter-insurgency: monitoring, tracking, and reporting.
“Not all wrong,” Pietermaritzburg said. “We observe the kaffirs. We monitor the kaffirs. We track the kaffirs. But we’re not David Livingstone or Henry Morton Stanley—we don’t record the lives of kaffirs, Joburg. We end them. Do you understand?” I said I did. “We shall see.” Pietermaritzburg winked at Kaapstad. “How is your military alphabet?” Alpha, Bravo, Charlie, Delta, Echo—I was cut off by more laughing and hooting. “Your alphabet is shit.” Pietermaritzburg smiled. “Don’t worry, we’ll help you improve it. Now, seeing as you’re new to our merry company, the first thing you need to know is this: G is for gift. We have a welcoming present for you. Follow me.”
The good old days.
Just days to me.
Old, old days.
as in Republic of; as in República de Angola and Repubilika ya Ngola; as in “One of the kaffir countries playing-acting independence,” Kimberley said, by way of welcome, “your new home.”; as in mottled shades of green and a silence not found in nature—not even in the desert; as in “Keep your eyes open because the kaffirs are out there,” Pietermaritzburg said, always wary, giving everything two and then three passovers with his eyes. “This whole country is camouflage—it puts on its best colours just for you and lulls your senses with nature while it hides the kaffirs. Stay alert, Joburg.”; as in ambush, with bullets spraying from anonymous clumps of bush; as in “Fala inglês?” Kimberley asks when we stumble across a village of scared kaffirs near Cuito; as in “Take all the edibles,” Pietermaritzburg said, “I’m sure they’re feeding those PLAN kaffirs when we aren’t around.”; as in “Step exactly where João steps because these fucking kaffirs have mined the whole place,” East London instructed, “You don’t want to stray off the path and—”
or, ANC—as in African National Congress; as in “If this party ever comes to power I guarantee you the white race will be extinct in South Africa within ten years,” Kimberley said vehemently, listening to the unbanning of the Old Enemy, with the whole country holding its breath, preparing for an uncertain future.
or, Apartheid—as in racial segregation; as in God’s Law; as in “God made white people and put them in Europe. Then He made kaffirs and put them in Africa. The yellow Chinaman He put in Asia. And the red people He put in America. Think about it,” Kimberley said, certain, “putting them all on separate continents was a sign the races were never intended to mix. We only came to Africa to manage the bloody kaffirs because they couldn’t do it by themselves!”
as in the Ntu peoples; as in migration from West and Central Africa heading south; as in “They’re not even from here originally,” Kaapstad said, laughing at the incredulity of land claims while we were on the march; as in “The kaffirs are the enemies of New Canaan and they must be beaten back at all costs,” Kimberley said, holding onto the bible his father had given him when he enlisted.
or, Benguela—as in oceanic current; as in the poes kou water in Swakopmund or the lonely Skeleton Coast when I visited recently; as in the city by the sea where the kaffirs put some wild blood in the Portuguese women over there; as in Eriel Leila Dos Santos who said she’d take care of it by herself if she had to, not knowing she’d have to; as in “She’s just another woman,” Kaapstad counselled. “Beautiful, but still a half-kaffir. That child’s going to be whiter than her—that’s an improvement in her general fortunes, I think.”
or, Blood River—as in Battle of; as in “Where Andries Pretorius defeated the Zulu kaffirs with help from the One True God who shall one day return with Jesus Christ His Son to reinforce us,” Kimberley said when he asked me if I knew my history, “the faithful who work to rid the earth of the kaffirs and the communists.”
or, Bushman—as in San; as in desert pygmy; as in “The best trackers alive,” Pietermaritzburg said, remembering one who’d served with him. “He could smell which direction kaffirs farted from a kilometre away and tell you their tribe just by looking at their shit. Decent guy.”; as in “What happened to him?” asked Knysna, always curious; as in “Had to put him down after he got drunk on the job and nearly got us ambushed. Once you get alcohol in these kaffirs they’re pretty useless. But that boesman was a hell of a tracker.”
as in Chancellor Leo Von; as in the man who managed to get a whole people named after him; as in Pietermaritzburg’s favourite interview technique—the Caprivi Strip: “You take a sharp knife and peel skin off the forearms and thighs and continue through the babble of lies and screams because as they say, the truth will out.”
or, Cassinga—as in Operation Reindeer; as in there is no difference between civilians and soldiers when it comes to the kaffirs: “There are only targets and all that matters is whether they’re moving or still,” Pietermaritzburg said when the news reached us.
or, Casspir—as in not the friendly ghost; as in “Watch how a whole village turns into a Kolmanskop when one is spotted on the horizon,” Kaapstad said, always quick with a joke and passing a light for a smoke.
or, Che—as in Ernesto Guevara; as in the Argentine Karlo-Marlo terrorist; as in “The Communist Jesus Christ whose lies the kaffirs have ingested whole,” Kimberley said.
or, colonialism—as in the Scramble for Africa; as in “The best thing to ever happen to the kaffirs and the last time anything civil ever happened on the whole bloody continent,” Kimberly added, older, sipping his beer, raising his voice in the bar, certain of securing agreement from the other patronage; as in “These kaffirs complain too much. Didn’t we bring them roads, schools, advanced medicine, and electricity?” he added to vociferous cheering from everyone else; as in “If they didn’t like being colonised, then they must give back all of the things we brought them,” someone else piped up to much agreement.
as in the diamond company; as in a draft dodger: “Do you know where diamonds from Africa wind up?” Kaapstad asked. “Somewhere else!”; as in “Then why am I still here?” Kimberley asked; as in “Because you’re not a diamond,” Kaapstad replied, “you’re a doos!”
or, Dimitri—as in Tsafendas; as in “The Greek bastard who killed Hendrik Verwoerd in Parliament for doing nothing more than try to execute God’s Plan,” Kimberley said, eyes hardening; as in to stab someone; as in “Tsafendas the bloody kaffir and be done with it, Joburg,” Kaapstad said, “the crying is getting in the way of enjoyment of this exceptionally fine cigarette.”
as in “The fokken souties who took this country from us,” Kimberley said; as in “Everyone who discovered tea and crumpet roots and fled to that miserable little island to escape the draft,” Pietermaritzburg added.
or, East London; as in never really knew him before he died; as in “The army always has vacancies,” Kaapstad said later that night, eyes dark with hatred after shooting João (“The kaffir should’ve known better!” he shouted after Pietermaritzburg asked him why he’d killed our guide), “job openings that need to be filled by soon-to-be dead men. You, Joburg, do you know what we call a pension in the army? A general.”
or, Egypt—as in the Arab Republic of; as in one of the countries that continued training SWALA (South West African Liberation Army) terrorists along with Ghana, The People’s Republic of China, North Korea, and Algeria; as in the Arab sympathisers; as in “I can’t believe the Arabs sided with the kaffirs. I thought they hated the blacks,” Pietermaritzburg said. “They practically created Zanzibar as a market for these monkeys!”
as in Alejandro Castro Ruz; as in the Communist Godfather; as in the Cuban kaffir who flooded Angola with soldiers we had to work hard to avoid; as in “The fucker outlasted ten presidents, eh,” Pietermaritzburg chuckled, ageing, cancer shooting through him. “Maybe there’s something in that communism shit, eh?”
as in the first kill; as in “Right, as you can see, we’re a small unit. We don’t have the resources to keep prisoners,” Pietermaritzburg said. “This one here says he isn’t a PLAN soldier but I don’t believe him. And because I don’t believe him it means he’s lying. I don’t like liars, especially kaffir liars. You see this knife? You’re going to fetch me his eyes, tongue, and ears. If you don’t do it, I will shoot you. You die in real life just like you died on paper when you joined my command. Understand?”; as in I understood very well.
or, Group—as in Areas Act; as in Act No. 41 of 1950; as in separate but equal development; as in “God’s Grand Plan to stop the kaffirs from having another Tower of Babel episode,” Kimberley said. “That was the first step to creating the Second Eden, Paradise on Earth! I can’t believe these kaffirs couldn’t see how good everything could’ve been.”
as in Cuba; as in the capital city of Communism; as in the “The first gate to Hell”, Kimberley said, “the safest thing to do is blow that whole island up.”
or, Hermanus—as in Kaptein Van Wyk; as in the half-kaffir from Rehoboth; as in the leader of the half-caste people to whom Kaapstad generously added his genetic material when making his journey up to the far north. “Think about it,” Kaapstad said, “I was enlightening them. Haha. Get it? It’s what they want anyway.”
or, Hendrik—as in Kaptein Witbooi; as in “Why you shouldn’t teach the kaffirs how to use a rifle,” Pietermaritzburg said, angry, looking at Malmesbury—another short-lived member of our unit—lying prone, bullet-hole through his head after we’d flanked the lost PLAN unit and destroyed it completely.
as in electrical shock; as in castration; as in hanging; as in firing squad; as in “Giving the kaffir a reason to answer questions forthrightly,” Pietermaritzburg said, looking at Knysna’s wide eyes when he realised why the captured men were drawing lots. “The one with the short stick gets the long end of the rifle.”
or, interview—as in interrogation; as in when kaffirs are given the opportunity to answer questions forthrightly “as best as they can to see if they get a job among the living or the dead,” Kaapstad said, laughing.
or, ICJ—as in International Court of Justice; as in “That mumbling, bumbling bunch of addle-brained Dutchmen,” Pietermaritzburg said. “They’re the ones who got us in this mess in the first place by trying to give these damn kaffirs their independence.”
as in Of The Bushveld by Sir James Percy Fitzpatrick; as in “I named him after the one in the book,” Kimberley said, lovingly petting his Staffordshire terrier when I visited him at his seaside cottage which overlooked the Indian Ocean—“I never want to see anything the Atlantic touches ever again,” he’d said earlier in a moment of reminiscence, hands gripping the armrest of his chair.
or, Johannesburg—as in the city of gold; as in home; as in me when Pietermaritzburg phones me and said “No doubt you’ve heard about what Knysna is trying to do. Well, we’ve got to stop him. Just like the good old days, eh?”; as in another long trip far from home.
or, Johnny—as in Clegg; as in the White Zulu; as in “That fucking white kaffir,” Pietermaritzburg said, fuming, when he heard Asibonanga on the radio as we drove to Knysna’s place by the sea. “Change the bloody music!”
as in aapie, blackie, darkie, bobbejan; as in the Bantu; as in “ All the hard-heeled motherfuckers we fought against to get this land,” Kimberley said, taking aim; as in “10 rands that kaffir makes it to the tree-line,” Pietermaritzburg wagered, gauging the distance, knowing Kimberley was not a good shot; as in “You hit him clean in the brains!” Kaapstad exclaimed; as in “Kaffirs don’t have brains,” Kimberley replied, “just spaces between their ears where we put our judgment.”
or, Kaapstad—as in the comedian from Cape Town; “He’s a soutie, but a good one,” Pietermaritzburg said by way of introduction; as in the best shooter in the unit; as in killed in action in Owamboland; as in “Leave him,” Pietermaritzburg shouted, running towards some rocks for shelter, with gunfire sniffing at our heels; as in “Poor bastard,” Kimberley said, wiping his eyes, taking a sip of his whisky in the bar, “he could always make a joke. Gave those kaffirs real hell up there!”
or, Kimberley—as in the Big Holy; as in “beloved beloved father, brother, uncle, son, and soldier”; as in died of diabetic complications; as in survived by his widow, his son, my godson of military age, and his daughter; as in “I understand why Knysna felt the way he did, and why he pursued that course of action, but I’m not sure what happened next was correct, Joburg,” he said, years later, looking out at the waves tumbling over themselves in their glee. “I’m not going to shy away from my part in it, but I’m not sure we did the right thing.”; as in “Diabetes? That’s a kak way to go, eh,” Pietermaritzburg said, drunk, emotional, scared of the mutiny in his own body. “Imagine surviving Suid-Wes only to be killed by fucking sugar. I’m telling you, it’s not right for soldiers like us to die from civilian causes. Let me face all the kaffirs in the world again, but cancer—”
or, Knysna—as in a boy in a man’s body trapped in a devil’s war; as in the youngest member of our unit, sent to replace East London; as in the one who always asked if there was no other way; as in “No, there’s no other way, Knysna,” Pietermaritzburg said. “This is the only way in this unit. Now, you either open your gift or I take this knife and unwrap you. Do you understand?”; as in the one who had the worst disease civilian life could conjure up, worse than cancer: the conscience; as in a resort town on the Garden Route; as in a hotel room; as in a restaurant near the marina where we shared drinks—me, Pietermaritzburg, Kimberley, and Knysna, with tense, forced-out laughter, and furtive looks to the left and to the right; as in “Remember the good old days?” Pietermaritzburg asked; as in “There were no good old days,” Knysna replied, “just days, and our evil part in them.”; as in “Stop that kind of talk,” Pietermaritzburg said, “it’s the kind of talk that could get you into serious trouble.”; as in “Is that why you’re here?” Knysna asked; as in “No, Knysna, we’re just on holiday,” Pietermaritzburg replied, “just a short trip to visit an old friend.”
as in the capital city of Zambia, formerly Northern Rhodesia; as in the Lusaka Accords; as in the signed lies of ceasefire that Castro laughed at; as in the useless pieces of paper that had no hope of ending the Border War.
as in granted to the Union of South Africa by the League of Nations after the Germans lost the First World War; as in administration, not annexation; as in “There was no way the kaffirs could form their own republic,” East London, who considered himself to be a keen political mind, said, “so of course we had to take it over and run it as another province.”
or, menopause—as in a ceasefire; as in a temporary pause on the bloodletting during the Lusaka Accords.
or, missionary—as in the useless Lutheran missionaries who supported the kaffirs in their desire to achieve a Christian life and occasionally aided them; as in to lie flat on the ground when under fire.
as in the Republic of; as in the former South West Africa; as in the country born from the South African Border War—an illegitimate child of the Cold War; as in the place where military-age males were required to serve; as in the land of savannahs, sunsets, the Fish River Canyon, Sossusvlei and its red sand dunes that look like they lapped up all the blood spilled in birthing the country, and the Skeleton Coast in the oldest desert in the world where the ghosts of dead freedom fighters lurk, whisper, and cry; as in I visited it last year, retracing my steps in a country born from guerrilla warfare and Communism, now a capitalist utopia like the very best of the fallen Soviet and Cuban disciples; as in 825,615 square kilometers of almost nothingness but horizons and landscapes, 2.3 million people, the lowest population density after Mongolia, and so many rapes per minute you’d think there were more people living there; as in the country that fought so hard to be independent from South Africa only to have its best and brightest finding any means to secure permanent residency and citizenship in the land of its so-called former oppressor; as in why did we fight a whole bloody war with these kaffirs if time would deliver us total annexation through economics? The rands delivered what the bullets could not.
or, Nelson—as in Rolihlahla Mandela; as in the President of the Republic of South Africa after the kaffirs took it over; as in “Mark my words,” Kimberley said, “they’re going to come for all of us if they allow this monkey to take over the Republic.”
as in Northern Namibia; as in the blanket and all-encompassing heat; as in the land of the most populous kaffirs in South West Africa; as in entire villages stripped of men and run by women; as in dry patches of sand that turn into miniature lakes in the rainy season.
or, OAU—as in Organisation of African Unity; as in the first SWAPO bankers who gave 20,000 pounds to be used in the armed struggle; as in “No war has ever been waged without a bank guarantee somewhere,” Pietermaritzburg said, solemn, surveying the oncoming night. “The OAU signed off on the first cheque for SWAPO.”
or, Okavango—as in river; as in “The only smart thing in this godforsaken country,” Kaapstad once said, looking at the moving water, pensive for a moment, not shielded by humour. “Look how it flows away from the fighting. It makes you want to board that little canoe with the kaffir in it and just sail away, doesn’t it?”; as in row, row, row your boat, gently own the stream, if you see a terrorist, don’t forget to shoot; as in “Got him,” Kaapstad said. “Pay up.”
as in unit leader; as in another “beloved beloved father, brother, uncle, son, and soldier”—I used the same monikers from Kimberley’s funeral since I couldn’t think of anything else to say about the man; as in survived by his daughters; as in “That’s the coldest kaffir-killing bastard around,” Kaapstad after my gift was unwrapped, “an odd sort, a soldier’s soldier—you stick with him and you’ll be okay.”; as in the man who saved me from certain death a countless times; as in the man who could not be reasoned with; as in “Listen, Joburg,” he said over the phone, angry, “Knysna’s conscience has declared itself to be our enemy. Finish en klaar. I’ll see you in the morning.”
or, PLAN—as in People’s Liberation Army of Namibia (formerly SWALA); as in the military wing of SWAPO; as in saboteurs and guerrillas; as in “The nearly invisible monkeys that cannot come out and fight like men,” Pietermaritzburg said; as in the kaffirs who received material assistance from the Communist republics of the world; as in “The devil’s foot soldiers,” Kimberley said. “These devils will fight tooth and nail for this patch of sand beyond reason and hope. They’re up against a superior enemy, but still they fight—if that’s not kaffir black magic I don’t know what is.”
as in antimalarial drug; as in “I can’t think of other things beginning with q,” Kaapstad said; as in “That’s a hard one,” Pietermaritzburg agreed, scanning the landscape, stopping the day’s march, and bringing a pause to our game of military alphabet. “We stop here for the night. Looks quiet—there’s one for you, Kaapstad: quiet. Tonight we’ll make our way towards Cuito. I hear some kaffirs are dug in there. No, Cuito with a c not with a q.”
as in tea from the red bush, as in a sunset from the south when summer is at its peak; as in “A virgin girl,” Kaapstad said, “after twelve is tea-time. What? You’ve never had yourself some rooibos? You should try it. Calms the nerves, it does.”
or, Robert—as in Mangaliso Sobukwe; as in the founder of the Pan Africanist Congress; as in one of the fewkaffirs who knew the only way for the kaffirs to fight against his inevitable fate—past, present, and future—was together; as in solitary confinement; as in “You know,” Pietermaritzburg said, fighting a new domestic war, struggling to settle into a life without combat, “I’ve been reading some of the writings and ideas from all the kaffirs on Robben Island. Dangerous stuff, I tell you. If all the kaffirs woke up to such things this damned continent would be quite different,” as in “Isolate the kaffir and the kaffir can’t spread their lies,” Kimberley replied, changing gears, driving towards Knysna’s house. “Or our truth.”
or, Ruins—as in of Great Zimbabwe; as in “You let the kaffirs get their hands on land and look what they do with it?” Kimberley said once, reading news about the waves of refugees from the old Rhodesia, “Those ruins were probably the high point of that country. Ruins then, ruins now.”
as in South West Africa People’s Organisation, as in the former OPO—Owambo People’s Organisation; as in led by Samuel Shafishuna Nujoma—“The Bobbejaan Koning,” Pietermaritzburg said, “you take that kaffir out and you cut off the head of the snake!”; as in “Give it time,” Kimberley said, “all that socialism bullshit he’s preaching is light cologne. It can’t work in that heat. Eventually, the capitalist sweat of the kaffirs will come through.”
or, self-determination—as in “The thing these kaffirs want the most even though they are used to being ruled by their own chiefs and kings,” Pietermaritzburg said.
or, Sophiatown—as in “Kaffirs have never built anything a good bulldozer couldn’t bring down,” Kimberley said when we drove past the old location, with Pietermaritzburg fiddling with the radio and stumbling across Johnny Clegg.
or, SWANLA—as in South West African Native Labour Association; as in “Without that organisation kaffirs like Hugh Masekela and Lucky Dube woudn’t find enough material for their bloody Stimelas.” Pietermaritzburg said, still fiddling with the radio. “They should be thanking the migrant labour system for delivering enough kaffirs to the mines and farms in South Africa—now they have something to sing about.”
as in the United Republic of Tanzania; as in Dar Es Salaam, the halfway home for SWAPO exiles; as in “The training grounds for many of these damned terrorists!” Pietermaritzburg raged one night, flea-bitten, ragged from the march, low on rations. “I don’t understand why we don’t just wipe out the whole damn lot, from the Cape to Cairo, and be done with these kaffirs once and for all.”
or, transition—as in the strange state between war and civilian life filled with alcohol, nights of sweat-soaked sleep thinking of the ghosts of kaffirs and knowing the war was justified and “A soldier serves, he doesn’t ask questions,” Kimberley said, gazing at the sea once more. “We did what we had to do.”; as in the years spent learning how to shake hands with kaffirs, learning how to be employed by them, how to sit next to them in church and smile and offer them the sign of peace.
or, Truth—as in Reconciliation Commission; as in Knysna wanted to appear, testify, and ask for forgiveness; as in “To get amnesty you’d have to tell the whole truth, Knysna,” Pietermaritzburg said, “and many people would be implicated.”; as in “The truth will out,” Knysna said; as in “Yes, but not from you,” Pietermaritzburg replied; as in “What happened to brotherhood? We kill our own now?” Knysna asked; as in “You are the last mission,” Pietermaritzburg replied picking up the gun; as in the truth shall set you free; as in “A man is a poor vessel for secrets,” Knysna said once, hollow, after we’d finished inspiring and interrogating some kaffirs we’d captured—it took the whole day, “we weren’t made to live with lies.”; as in spending time compiling a compendium of important terminology for military-age males, or a truthful account of the old days—still in a work in progress, but one step towards the truth in some small way.
as in National Union for the Total Independence of Angola; as in the Angolan kaffirs we are bound to help as an excuse to continue fighting the South West African kaffirs.
or, USSR—as in the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics; as in Communist Merchant Numero Uno; as in “The socialist sympathiser of the kaffirs,” Pietermaritzburg said, spitting disgustedly at the ground, “and the supplier of military advisers and materials to the insurgent kaffirs. The communists want the whole world wielding a sickle and collectively cutting wheat for everyone!”; as in “Do you know what you find inside a kaffir’s stomach when you cut him open?” Kaapstad asked, eyes twinkling, “Vladimir Lenin’s cock.”
as in perseverance, as in “Hang in there, Johannesburg,” Pietermaritzburg said, staunching the wound, “it’s just scratch. Hold on. Vasbyt.”
as in vane; as in “How do you figure out the direction of the wind?” Kaapstad asked; as in “Simple,” Kimberley replied, “you round up some kaffirs and ask them where their PLAN relatives are.”; as in “Then you get some rope,” Pietermaritzburg enjoined, “and find a good tree and rope the whole lot and use the direction of the swaying to figure out whether its a south westerly.”
as in tribe; as in Maqoma, a chief of the kaffirs; as in raider and torcher of homesteads; as in “Round up all the kaffirs and send them to Robben Island is what I say. And drown the remainder,” Kimberley said.
as in “The only good words to come out of a kaffir’s mouth,” Kimberley said, swatting at bugs, loaded down with equipment, “I think heaven is a place where all you hear is Yes, baas! all the time.”
as in Shaka; as in killed by Dingane and Mhlangana—“The kaffirs don’t even have basic brotherhood,” Pietermaritzburg said. “But not here, Joburg. Here we’re brothers. It’s the only way we’ll make it through this. Do you understand? You do what I tell you, follow instructions, and maybe, just maybe, you might make it out alive. There will be no songs about us. No medals. So forget all that glory shit. All we have is each other and our targets. We take out our targets before they take us out. Understand? Good. Pass me my knife. Now you’ve started on a proper military alphabet. Time to get going on your ABCs.”